7.30 in the evening

beberapa minggu terakhir ini (kira2 2 minggu), saya baru aja dengerin lagu yg judulnya ’sen no yoru wo koete’ (Passing Through a Thousand Nights) dari ending theme song-nya Bleach movie yg pertama..enakeun sih, mellow banget..cuma pas sy nyari arti lagu itu di internet, ternyata artinya watir pisan, ga cocok sama kondisi sy waktu itu yg lagi seneng2nya..jadi yaa cuma dengerin buat iseng2 aja, ga dimasukin ke hati..hahahaha

cuma tadi, abis solat isya sy langsung nyalain komputer dan pengen denger lagu itu..situasinya pas banget sm sy sekarang..nyanyiin lagi ah..artinya aja tapi..

I want you to love me, but I don’t think you will
I wander around as I repeat this to myself
It’s the only answer I have; that even if I’m scared or getting hurt
I can say “I love you” to the one I love

Do you love me or not?
I don’t care what the reason is, I just need to know
no matter how badly I desire to be with you
There are many unchangeable things in this world,
and my love for you
can’t be stopped by anyone

as a thousand nights pass, I long to tell you
I have to let you know
I want you to love me, but I don’t think you will
I wander around as I repeat this to myself
It’s the only answer I have; that even if I’m scared or getting hurt
I can say “I love you” to the one I love
putting these feelings into words are so scary,
But I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

The happiness we chance upon in our lives can’t be expressed in words
that’s why we can only smile
and why we sing do-re-mi among the vivid autumn colors
with winter in our back, and the spring sunbeam peeking through the leaves
as to protect someone who’s just been reborn

as I looked at the road I’d traveled and the path ahead, my eyes were filled by cowardice
I want to look into your eyes, but was afraid I wouldn’t be honest
I didn’t want to know that you didn’t love me
and live the rest of my days all alone
that day, I kept on loving you without getting hurt

as a thousand nights pass, I long to tell you
I have to let you know
I want you to love me, but I don’t think you will
I wander around as I repeat this to myself
It’s the only answer I have; that even if I’m scared or getting hurt
I can say “I love you” to the one I love
Even if my feelings aren’t returned, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s the most wonderful thing in this world

ALONE

it happens again
for the third time
when technologies don’t get along with me
when I must stand alone in this night
without the partner

after the sun comes to shine on me again
what should I do?
there will be some dissapeared habits
the moments i used to laugh
forgetting the world from its cruelty

temporary goodbye she said?
eventhough the word ‘temporary’ means ‘there’ll be an end’
I can’t bear with it
the pressure on my feet forces me to run from reality
to end this temporary goodbye much quicker
and obtain a permanent happiness

if the twilight comes
with who should I see a beautiful orange sky?
how should I see the rainbow after the squall?
when will I see thousands radiants of light again?
I can’t bear with it
if she’s away

but when we’re mingled
there’s no time to mangle
let’s walk and don’t stop
until we reach the top
so we’ll dance like a spinning top

please listen to my heart
hear it from the very start
although our connection becomes so hard
soon we’ll find a peace
that we collected from every piece
and finally I’ll present you a sweet kiss