my heart is overflowing recently. I can say that I’m now in a good mood, but I keep myself in a silence, hold my happiness, as if there were no special thing occurs. what am I hiding? why must I hide this feeling? there are a lot of good things happened before I wrote this post (and after my ‘eyes on me’ post). and, what makes me has just written it now is that: “I don’t know how to express it”.
I’m not good in expressing or telling my story to anyone, so it will take a very long time for me to finish this post. and maybe I’m not going to tell you a whole story. in fact, I don’t know whether I’ll tell the story or babbling and murmuring about my feeling.
The last rainy night had been wonderful to me. I put my phone to my ear for very long time, smiling and laughing with someone in the other line. talking about our happiness in the previous days, when we had had our best moment that I can’t ever forget. oh My God, I just can’t say anything right now!!! where is the time when I made a very long poetic verses for her? who is she? how can she make me fall into the gorge of wordless world? this is the very first time i’m silenced by something. I mean, I am a silence person, but at least I can show my mood by writing. and now, this day, this hour, this second, I can’t even find any word to write my feeling.
my brain’s stuck, the only thing that fulfilled my brain is ALL about her. I forget how life works, what I did yesterdays, and how much assignments i have to do. c’est complique de penser une personne que j’adore, mais il m’amuse. That’s why I don’t ignore this feeling, I let myself fall into this gorge because I believe I’ll acquire something in the bottom. The true happiness of ours.
Let me stop writing for a while, as I enjoy this silence. and I promise to all of you, as soon as I get back, there will be TONS of adorable things I’m going to share. All about me and my flower, the conclusion of our story. I hope it will be the sweetest ending.
Fall for The Rise
