confused
don’t know what to do for my future
hopeless??
no
I’m still searching answers
in the crowded place, in the middle of sanctuary,
or in the middle of the rubbish and filthy barren road?
trapped in a wasteland of faint memory
searching for the way out
don’t want to choose the wrong side
it’s only tear someone’s heart apart
stay focus, keep in the line, give the best
I just don’t want to hurt anybody once again
enough with the pains I inflicted
dethroning the queen from its sovereignty
the queen beat me with her spell of condemnation
but I tortured her with my evil tongue
tongue of lies and canards
tongue of betrayal that was given from the two fairies
Ophelia the Sylph,
The fairy who whispered the words of betrayal
she sang sweetly with her harp everyday
until she sprinkled her lovable heart to me
and I couldn’t reject it
And the other fairy whose name was Nymph
she was the fairy from another territory but flew to my side
to whisper another canard
and gave another charm
‘love me, love me’ she said
and I couldn’t reject it
One time
when I couldn’t control myself because of the two fairies’ temptation
I realized that I loved the fake love
The love that was never promised to be loyal
so I destroyed my heart with my own hand
I cut my heart in half, and burned my eyes
that was so hurt
but I couldn’t do anything instead of this
deep in my unconsciousness and uncertainty
I hid in a cave
I shouted the name of God
I asked Him to let me out of this ordeal
He Answers my prayer
as He Let me to meet a girl
a girl of the perfect happiness who gave me a flower
The flower that is now on my hand
The flower that was hurt once too
Its fast-healing ability acted as a vaccine to me
restored my heart and revived my eyes
I saw the flower smiling at me
was it just my fantasy or was it the real one?
now
I continue my path with the flower on my shoulder
and protect it from its old pain
I’m here on the wasteland, searching the medical herb for my flower
but I can’t find it
what should I do??
what should I do??
I’m still searching answers
I will heal my flower
Like it healed me back then
